7rings: sasazuka

[chevaleros]

determined to make sasazuka an honorary lesbian

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[dotcom]

It had her form, anyway.

[ since that would mean calling whatever the fuck the other one was ichika. ]

[chevaleros]

[ their poor, beautiful girls turned meat monsters.

she lets out a slow sigh, as though deliberating, discomfited. ]

For me to say such things... And yet I do not know who this woman is.

[dotcom]

[ huh?

there's a pause, as he realizes what might be going on. ]

After... what happened. Did you forget?

[chevaleros]

[ ordinarily, it'd be safer to keep these details to herself, but... with takeru, she thinks it's best to be honest. ]

Forget...? [ did she? ] I keep a journal, and that's where I read that name. Katalina. But if you told me to write of her now, I wouldn't have any words.

[dotcom]

[ ... ]

My wish. I remember what it is, but... for some reason I can't remember part of the reason for it. But I know it's something very important, because then why else would I want a wish for it?

[chevaleros]

[ hm. ]

Truthfully, I don't know what my motivation for being here is either. But we must have them...

I don't know that I've encountered anyone else with these issues. It's only my own memories that seem so murky.

[dotcom]

... should we ask the other two?

[ since it's just the two of them, and no one else brought it up. the timing of it also is suspicious. ]

[chevaleros]

That seems... prudent. Perhaps it's some kind of twisted punishment, though I accept it if that is the case.

[ they did what they had to. ]

[dotcom]

I agree. If it's all four of us, that's probably the case.

[chevaleros]

Then ask we shall.

[ she lets out a sigh, then pulls herself together. ]

In any case, I'm sorry you had to witness that. It must be uncomfortable, living through someone else.

[dotcom]

I think I'm starting to get used to it.

[ he says

and then another memory starts to play (watch til the end of the video).

and the thing is, for all of the other memories of his that were shown, this one actually makes him freeze. ]

[chevaleros]

[ Likewise for Sasazuka, the girl she sees in this memory is familiar. Not the grotesque, twisted version they'd encountered in that awful journey last week, but her own person. And someone important to him, in the way his arms tighten around her, his fear palpable even to Vira, who is just a visitor to this moment.

When they emerge from it, she shivers involuntarily, gripping her arms to suppress it. ]

Are you... all right?

[dotcom]

[ there is a stretched period of silence, where he's trying to school his expression into something more neutral. but he can't quite manage it completely. ]

Yes. I'm good.

[chevaleros]

[ She is quiet a moment, mostly to give him some time, partly because it's hard to know the right thing to say. ]

...You don't seem like the kind of person who wants pity. But for what it's worth, I'm sorry for what you lost. Whoever that may be, and however you may have lost them once.

[ At the other end of a muzzle, maybe? She won't needle him about it. ]

[dotcom]

[ there's a pause, almost like he's not even going to give her a response.

but. ]

I don't remember who it was.

[ the thing he forgot. ]

[chevaleros]

[ whether or not he's being honest, it doesn't really matter. ]

...So that could have something to do with why you're here.

[dotcom]

Most likely. It's the only thing that really makes sense.

[chevaleros]

All the same, it must've been terrible to affect you so.

It was bold of you to face that man as you did.

[ maybe sasazuka was harsh in how he handled it, but she's not one to criticize over something like that. ]

[dotcom]

[ sometimes you need to break someone to get anything out of them. it's fine. ]

... if you let yourself be stopped at everything you might fear, then you won't get anywhere. [ ... ] As long as you can do what you have to do, you can deal with your feelings afterwards.

[chevaleros]

True enough, though I do not think many have a rein on their feelings as you do.

[ herself perhaps included. ]

...I don't know if it's cruel to wish that you remember. But if they were important to you, I hope you do.

[dotcom]

... I'd rather know than not. If it's important enough for me to be here.

[ even if it hurts as much as it does, having something like that taken from you feels a little violating. he doesn't want to not know what has made him... him. ]