While I'm humiliated already, I may as well humiliate myself a little further, and then we can avoid one another until curfew or other developments demand?
[. . .]
We both know one another's circumstances, and our reasons for being here - well, I know yours, at least. For that obvious reason, outside of Wednesday curses, I haven't ever thought of matters in terms of any particular obligations we have to one another aside from the fact that you are dear to me. Your friendship and your companionship is meaningful to me.
But now I find myself in the uncomfortable position of wanting to subject you to my personal views against my better instincts, having subjected everyone to some sort of ridiculous twisted version of them and wanting to right the record.
I am not the sort of person who approaches things casually. When I first came here, I thought perhaps I ought to try to change that, because it seemed expected of me and the notion of being held back by some sort of tender sentiment that others did not possess was offensive to me.
But if I were truly to examine what it is I wish to do during the time we have left here, what I desire is simply your company. Nothing else.
[ what a roller coaster of a week. a while later: ]
I'm sure Mollymauk would not let you endure an ugly tattoo, at least.
But I am touched by, as you might put it, your tender sentiment. If what you desire is my time, then how could I deny you? I only wish I could put my own feelings so eloquently.
[ maybe emotionshare isn't so bad in that regard. ]
However, there's been a new development that I want to talk to you and the others about, so let us speak again later. Do not worry yourself overmuch about any discomfort, everyone was out of their minds yesterday.
w6; thursday morning 1/3
2/3
3/4 actually
Well.
While I'm humiliated already, I may as well humiliate myself a little further, and then we can avoid one another until curfew or other developments demand?
[. . .]
We both know one another's circumstances, and our reasons for being here - well, I know yours, at least. For that obvious reason, outside of Wednesday curses, I haven't ever thought of matters in terms of any particular obligations we have to one another aside from the fact that you are dear to me. Your friendship and your companionship is meaningful to me.
But now I find myself in the uncomfortable position of wanting to subject you to my personal views against my better instincts, having subjected everyone to some sort of ridiculous twisted version of them and wanting to right the record.
I am not the sort of person who approaches things casually. When I first came here, I thought perhaps I ought to try to change that, because it seemed expected of me and the notion of being held back by some sort of tender sentiment that others did not possess was offensive to me.
But if I were truly to examine what it is I wish to do during the time we have left here, what I desire is simply your company. Nothing else.
4/4
Ugh.
Talk to you later.
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I'm sure Mollymauk would not let you endure an ugly tattoo, at least.
But I am touched by, as you might put it, your tender sentiment. If what you desire is my time, then how could I deny you? I only wish I could put my own feelings so eloquently.
[ maybe emotionshare isn't so bad in that regard. ]
However, there's been a new development that I want to talk to you and the others about, so let us speak again later. Do not worry yourself overmuch about any discomfort, everyone was out of their minds yesterday.
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She's all out of tender sentiments, so.]
As I said, until other developments demand. Gladly, let us speak with the others.