. . . It's hard for me to say, exactly, because I do not know what my wish will be, and what that will change. And it is hard, to accept pinning one's hopes to a future that may not occur.
But I've realized that I dread returning to where I was before this. I didn't realize until I came here how awful it was, and I no longer have any duty owed to the Ninth House that would obligate my return. So. . . I've agreed that I won't be returning there, if it's at all within my power. Perhaps I'll leave with Mollymauk.
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[She frowns a little.]
. . . It's hard for me to say, exactly, because I do not know what my wish will be, and what that will change. And it is hard, to accept pinning one's hopes to a future that may not occur.
But I've realized that I dread returning to where I was before this. I didn't realize until I came here how awful it was, and I no longer have any duty owed to the Ninth House that would obligate my return. So. . . I've agreed that I won't be returning there, if it's at all within my power. Perhaps I'll leave with Mollymauk.