[Does it? Vira's probably smart enough to pick up on how it very much seems like Harrow's current fucked up memories are something she, at some point, knew would happen to her, and to speculate from there. But Harrow can't really concentrate on these details or put them together; it gives her a headache when she tries.]

In some ways, I think it's easier. I have always done my duty to the Ninth. Now I do my duty to my own self, fulfilling the bargain that was made. I never have to doubt whether it was worth it, or fear losing my chance.

[. . .]

Despair has said that they can do something to correct the problem with my memories. I've been trying to decide whether it's a good idea or not.