It would be harder if I was deciding not to return to home, and what I love there. But I've already said goodbye to that.

[Gently. Because she does understand; even if it was a destructive choice, if that was the choice she was offered, it might be different. But she had already accepted she would never go back there long before this, and never expected her wish to change that.]

I'm not sure whether I have or whether I've just been badgered enough to give in. [Sigh.] . . . I suppose you and I are rather alike in so many ways, so you are likely as reticent as I am about making plans around things that may never come to pass. [She resisted agreeing to anything for so long.] It feels foolish to ask you what you will do, after this, when I am still rather convinced we'll all die here.