[She frowns a little, because she's not wrong, but. . .]
I do, and I miss my home, but I cannot return to either. When I became a Lyctor, that door shut forever. There are dangerous things that pursue us, and if I were ever to set foot in the Ninth House again, I would draw them there and bring destruction on all I hold dear.
It's all right; it's enough to know it's all there, and safe. It's enough to have had the opportunity to see her, and know she is there, and that someday she might wake, whether or not I ever see it. [But she also feels less despair at the notion that that's all she ever had than she's had previously.] I feel I've spent enough time devoted to what's dead.
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[She frowns a little, because she's not wrong, but. . .]
I do, and I miss my home, but I cannot return to either. When I became a Lyctor, that door shut forever. There are dangerous things that pursue us, and if I were ever to set foot in the Ninth House again, I would draw them there and bring destruction on all I hold dear.
It's all right; it's enough to know it's all there, and safe. It's enough to have had the opportunity to see her, and know she is there, and that someday she might wake, whether or not I ever see it. [But she also feels less despair at the notion that that's all she ever had than she's had previously.] I feel I've spent enough time devoted to what's dead.