[It's nasty, but probably explains a little better why, in the other memory Vira saw, Harrow was so intent on learning whether Gideon had really forgiven her. For all of this - for the nastiness of their childhood, for her inability to let go of the one person who was also there and had seen everything, for using that person as her whipping girl rather than admit all she wanted was a friend.
But yeah, no, she just thinks they're talking about Ortus. And she has plenty of reasons to feel guilty about Ortus. But Vira's words don't exactly apply to that situation. So - why is it that she feels so strongly that they do?
She's a little struck off balance, grateful for the admission even if it's hard to understand. She feared for so long anyone seeing a softer side of her, and now she's strangely afraid of been seen for her calcified ugliness, only partially shed.]
Thank you. I am grateful. I suppose that I. . . that I always knew how to lie, and manipulate, and command since I was a child, but somehow I never learned to think to ask.
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But yeah, no, she just thinks they're talking about Ortus. And she has plenty of reasons to feel guilty about Ortus. But Vira's words don't exactly apply to that situation. So - why is it that she feels so strongly that they do?
She's a little struck off balance, grateful for the admission even if it's hard to understand. She feared for so long anyone seeing a softer side of her, and now she's strangely afraid of been seen for her calcified ugliness, only partially shed.]
Thank you. I am grateful. I suppose that I. . . that I always knew how to lie, and manipulate, and command since I was a child, but somehow I never learned to think to ask.