[ She hums softly, and if Vira allows it, Medb will place one of her hands over one of Vira's. ]
I have the benefit... or the opportunity of having memories of multiple lives. [ Multiple summonings. ] It gives me a different kind of perspective at times.
[ Since she's no longer human. ]
You already know I'm not infallible or untouchable. Sometimes, all you need is one knight to be able to stand tall again, but I think you have more than that here.
Does liking someone mean you cannot be harsh? Does caring for someone mean you cannot do harm? Does being willing to say words others will not mean you don't deserve kindness?
[ She shifts closer to Vira and grabs her one hand with both of hers in a gentle hold. ]
You stood for what you believed. There isn't anything wrong with that. I am kind because I like you, Vira. Is that so strange?
[ she doesn't really have an answer for any of her questions except the last one. ]
...A little strange, yes.
[ she doesn't try to tear away or anything, though. she doesn't hate this; she's just tired. drained. she didn't enjoy what she did today. ]
Considering the circumstances we all arrived in, I expected people to be more reserved. I myself haven't made much, if any effort to get close to you all.
But even then, even though we have no way of knowing for certain who killed who or why, week by week you are gracious to me.
If I said I trusted everyone, that would be a lie, but I don't want to live in fear and paranoia. If I like someone, I like someone.
[ Liking someone doesn't always have to come with trust, but it'd be nice. It would be really nice. ]
You know I'm not a good person. I don't pretend to be one. I can be good to people, but I am not good, and the people I like do not have to always do good things either.
[ It's come up in enough of their conversations that she doesn't think it bears repeating, but she thinks it doesn't hurt to make the point. ]
[ she likes that there aren't pretenses with medb. they've already shared enough with each other that she knows they're both aware of the other's selfishness, and yet they can still share this time together as... friends.
after a moment she manages a small laugh, gently squeezing medb's hand back. ]
Selfish enough to still want for my company? [ even though misa will certainly die. medb is truly too good to her. ] Despite my moping, I appreciate it, Medb.
[ Medb is someone who will choose who she likes and what she likes over things like what society perceives as good or bad. They're both similar in that way, she thinks, but Medb knows there are differences between them still, and isn't that fine? ]
I'm always around to be appreciated. [ That is 10% a joke, probably. ] But even if it's your sin, try not to despair too much, okay? I like you as you are.
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[ It's not rude? It's chiding, a little concerned. ]
A queen is always fine.
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You know—I had learned recently that I had become something of a monarch, because Luminiera had willfully decided to become my knight.
[ a queen with just one subject, but one that has become very crucial to her. ]
But I do not have your fortitude, I think.
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I have the benefit... or the opportunity of having memories of multiple lives. [ Multiple summonings. ] It gives me a different kind of perspective at times.
[ Since she's no longer human. ]
You already know I'm not infallible or untouchable. Sometimes, all you need is one knight to be able to stand tall again, but I think you have more than that here.
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Do I...?
[ ... ]
I was not kind during trial. I like Misa—and I was still harsh to her. Condemned her.
Even so, there are people who show me kindness. You are all truly so strange.
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[ She shifts closer to Vira and grabs her one hand with both of hers in a gentle hold. ]
You stood for what you believed. There isn't anything wrong with that. I am kind because I like you, Vira. Is that so strange?
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...A little strange, yes.
[ she doesn't try to tear away or anything, though. she doesn't hate this; she's just tired. drained. she didn't enjoy what she did today. ]
Considering the circumstances we all arrived in, I expected people to be more reserved. I myself haven't made much, if any effort to get close to you all.
But even then, even though we have no way of knowing for certain who killed who or why, week by week you are gracious to me.
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[ Liking someone doesn't always have to come with trust, but it'd be nice. It would be really nice. ]
You know I'm not a good person. I don't pretend to be one. I can be good to people, but I am not good, and the people I like do not have to always do good things either.
[ It's come up in enough of their conversations that she doesn't think it bears repeating, but she thinks it doesn't hurt to make the point. ]
I'm selfish, Vira.
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after a moment she manages a small laugh, gently squeezing medb's hand back. ]
Selfish enough to still want for my company? [ even though misa will certainly die. medb is truly too good to her. ] Despite my moping, I appreciate it, Medb.
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[ Medb is someone who will choose who she likes and what she likes over things like what society perceives as good or bad. They're both similar in that way, she thinks, but Medb knows there are differences between them still, and isn't that fine? ]
I'm always around to be appreciated. [ That is 10% a joke, probably. ] But even if it's your sin, try not to despair too much, okay? I like you as you are.